Why now?

A few nights ago, I had a really bad stabbing intense stomach pain that prevented me from sleeping for four hours. The next day it subsided a bit but still made me achy and nauseous to the point where I ended up sleeping all afternoon. And I hate taking naps. But really there was nothing else I could do. I couldnt even stand up without feeling like throwing up. After talking to an advice nurse, she set an appointment for me. So the next day I went to the hospital and the doctor asked me a series of questions, prescribed me some stomach medicine. Instructed me to stop drinking soda and to stop taking Excedrine, and when I told her I get migraines frequently she requested for me to see a headache specialist (finally! I've only been begging my previous doctors for the last 6 years now). In addition to that, I have to get a cat scan done (and I just got the call from the hospital yesterday that I'll have to take "prep" which I'm sure is done for drink of doom) and a bunch of lab work.

I feel bad considering its Martin's last weeks here until he leaves for Basic and he has to spend it taking me to the hospital. Not ideal for your last few weeks home, right? This couldnt had came at a better time. =(

I'm feeling better today, I'm not looking forward to my cat scan. I was really hoping to avoid the drink of doom (you know that drink people always talk about that they have you take before cat scans so they can see your insides better). *sigh*. I'll just have to convince myself that tomorrow this isnt going to matter. I'm such a baby when it comes to physical pain and doing things I dont want to do, even if its for my own good. Seriously, I cant even eat fresh onion or cilantro without wanting to kill myself. I really hope this stuff isnt as bad as everyone says it is. My mom says its just a little bit salty. But you know mom's, they'll say anything to make you stop worrying! I know your game mom!!! I'm tempted to google it, but I think this is one of those things I probably dont want to know!

I cant believe he only has a few weeks left here =(. I dont want him to leave, but I know he has to. Its just going to be really hard without him here. And I hate sounding clingy, but its true. Hes the only friend I've got, without him here, I wont have anyone. At all. All my other friends are too busy going to Vegas or partying or drinking or doing some other random stupid shit. Whatever happened to just hanging out and watching a movie? Why does everything have to involve drinking or partying? I'll be fine, I guess. Do I really have a choice?

We got his engagement ring yesterday. I was hoping it would take a few days to get in, but its actually going to be coming in wayyy after the day I wanted to give it to him so now he's taking MY proposal date lol. Its okay, I'm sure he had it in mind this whole time, neither of us will say anything and ruin it though. I'm itching to get my ring already, but I think it would be awkward for me to shower and sleep with it on. It's so freakin big. At least compared to the rings I usually wear. I could probably end up scratching the hell out of someones face with it lol.

Do any of you who are married keep your ring on literally all the time?



foolishxlady A blog about my experience as a military girlfriend. My boyfriend of 5 1/2 years recently decided to join the United States Air Force. I have a more private journal about this (since I dont want to violate OPSEC) here.

This was originally suppose to be a blog about my experience as a military girlfriend & fiancée. But two weeks before my finance's BMT graduation, he was discharged for medical reasons. So, yeah, that sucks! But he still has the option to re-enlist after two years. They want to make sure he's fully recovered before coming back.

This blog, however will still be where I write about being a newlywed. We got married on December 28th, 2009 in Las Vegas, NV!

With that said, we're not married and since the military thing didnt work out, we're still on a struggle as to what we're going to do from here on out. So if you're interested in hearing about peoples struggles, you've came to the right place!