Thank you everyone for the congrats on the engagement! I'm excited! Though my ring makes it hard to wash my hands. And every time he squeezes that hand, I wanna punch him in the face. It hurts! Haha. But I really like it, he did SO well. I think hes more amazed with it than I am though, I swear he wants to see it every five seconds.
Thank you!
I'm engaged!!
Permission!
The night I came home from my CAT scan, Martin asked my mom for permission to marry me before he went home and I was standing in the hallway so I couldnt really hear what they were saying, but she sounded happy. He walked out smiling saying she almost made him tear. I heard her say "thank you for loving Hazel" but he told me after she said that she also said "really, it makes me happy that you love her so much" which is what almost got him to tear. He also asked my dad on his way home, but I wasnt there so I didnt hear that conversation. He said that my dad looked happy and he was saying that he's happy for us and whatever we decide to do.
I'm happy that my parents like Martin. He's definitely a huge change from my previous boyfriends. And I'm sure my parents see that difference. And how much he helps me all the time. Most of his time is dedicated to helping me. Sometimes I just dont get why he cares so much, but I'm glad he does. I'm sure they've seen how much I've changed since we've been together.
Now all I'm waiting for is for him to propose... I'm a little nervous lol.
I'm also debating if I should have an engagement party and where. I was thinking of having an engagement party/his going away party... but honestly, I dont feel like seeing his friends lol.
He's leaving in less than two weeks, I'm sad that hes going so soon. I swear we still had a month together, and I'm scared I'll end up shutting everyone out for the next six months. I really hope not! I hope I use the time to get things going. We'll see *sigh*.
Why now?
A few nights ago, I had a really bad stabbing intense stomach pain that prevented me from sleeping for four hours. The next day it subsided a bit but still made me achy and nauseous to the point where I ended up sleeping all afternoon. And I hate taking naps. But really there was nothing else I could do. I couldnt even stand up without feeling like throwing up. After talking to an advice nurse, she set an appointment for me. So the next day I went to the hospital and the doctor asked me a series of questions, prescribed me some stomach medicine. Instructed me to stop drinking soda and to stop taking Excedrine, and when I told her I get migraines frequently she requested for me to see a headache specialist (finally! I've only been begging my previous doctors for the last 6 years now). In addition to that, I have to get a cat scan done (and I just got the call from the hospital yesterday that I'll have to take "prep" which I'm sure is done for drink of doom) and a bunch of lab work.
I feel bad considering its Martin's last weeks here until he leaves for Basic and he has to spend it taking me to the hospital. Not ideal for your last few weeks home, right? This couldnt had came at a better time. =(
I'm feeling better today, I'm not looking forward to my cat scan. I was really hoping to avoid the drink of doom (you know that drink people always talk about that they have you take before cat scans so they can see your insides better). *sigh*. I'll just have to convince myself that tomorrow this isnt going to matter. I'm such a baby when it comes to physical pain and doing things I dont want to do, even if its for my own good. Seriously, I cant even eat fresh onion or cilantro without wanting to kill myself. I really hope this stuff isnt as bad as everyone says it is. My mom says its just a little bit salty. But you know mom's, they'll say anything to make you stop worrying! I know your game mom!!! I'm tempted to google it, but I think this is one of those things I probably dont want to know!
I cant believe he only has a few weeks left here =(. I dont want him to leave, but I know he has to. Its just going to be really hard without him here. And I hate sounding clingy, but its true. Hes the only friend I've got, without him here, I wont have anyone. At all. All my other friends are too busy going to Vegas or partying or drinking or doing some other random stupid shit. Whatever happened to just hanging out and watching a movie? Why does everything have to involve drinking or partying? I'll be fine, I guess. Do I really have a choice?
We got his engagement ring yesterday. I was hoping it would take a few days to get in, but its actually going to be coming in wayyy after the day I wanted to give it to him so now he's taking MY proposal date lol. Its okay, I'm sure he had it in mind this whole time, neither of us will say anything and ruin it though. I'm itching to get my ring already, but I think it would be awkward for me to shower and sleep with it on. It's so freakin big. At least compared to the rings I usually wear. I could probably end up scratching the hell out of someones face with it lol.
Do any of you who are married keep your ring on literally all the time?
